a baby and a house

The last few weeks have been stressful, to say the least. Aside from the fear I had over my first ultrasound (will there be a heartbeat? Will it be twins??) we have also been dealing with some living situation changes.

Before getting married my husband and I both owned condos. Once I moved into my husband’s place, we put mine on the market. Where it has remained (on and off) for three and a half years! We have rented it on and off during that time too, trying to not lose too much each month on it. Well last week, after lots of negotiating and long distance phone calls, we accepted an offer on my condo.

We have been casually looking at homes in the area over these last three years as well. We were hoping to find a place once we finally sold my condo and would then rent our current condo until the market gets a little better. We also wanted to capitalize on the low interest rates going on. This is kinda tricky though because I am pretty picky with future homes. We both don’t like moving so we wanted something we would be comfortable in for a long time. We also wanted to find a unique home that has some character, and feels like “home” to us. What we didnt expect was to find it this fast. We found a house we LOVE and put an offer on it just a few days after it was listed. We even got into a bit of a bidding war with another potential buyer. But the seller said she had a good “feeling” about us, so she accepted our offer!

Also, last Friday was our first ultrasound. We were able to get into our high risk MFM specialist for this appointment, and we were so happy to see one healthy, strong heartbeat!! I feel like I am floating lately. These good things will never erase the difficulties we have gone through so far, but it sure feels good to have three huge things go our way, all in ONE week! That is SUCH a change for us.

Obviously a lot could still go wrong with all of these things. I will never feel totally “safe” in this pregnancy, and real estate deals can always fall apart. But for now, I am loving the feeling that things are going our way. I am going to soak it in and enjoy it for as LONG as possible! We have earned it!

this time things are different

With my last pregnancy that ended in a miscarriage, I never really felt good about things. I wanted to put my heart in it because worrying is such a waste of time, but something made me be guarded. I knew deep down this wasn’t it.

During the two week wait with the triplets, I had a similar optimism as I did this cycle. I had never been pregnant before and had been trying for over a year, but it felt like it was time and I wasn’t too surprised when I got that positive test. After I found out there were three babies I think I went into a state of shock….one that may never truly go away. I still find myself in disbelief that I carried three babies at once for 20 weeks…and then that I lost them so quickly.

I hope the positive feelings I’ve had this time around continue. I definitely feel better about this pregnancy than the last…one hurdle at a time…

PS: beta #1 at 13dp5dt was 1,174. Holy crap that is high.

back to complaining about PIO

In the epic battle of which fertility medication is making me
the most miserable at the moment, PIO is once again in the lead.

Thanks to the wonderful tip I got last week to do the Lovenox injection extremely slowly, and deciding to ice the area beforehand, that injection is much better for now. I only have two fairly small (although very deep purple) bruises on my belly and the discomfort has decreased.

Oh PIO. I have some seriously large knots in my lower back thanks to these shots. I’m starting to run out of real estate for the injection sites without having to stick the needle straight into a knot. One side is approaching grapefruit size, the other is baseball size. They are seriously making my pants fit tighter, and are visible when I look at my profile in the mirror. They constantly hurt and the bruises are obviously rubbing against my pants all day which does not feel good either. Ugh. I’m such a complainer, but these things stink! I was told that once I get my beta results sent into my primary doctor my insurance will start covering Endometrin. I’m thinking I will replace the PIO with that as soon as we get back from our trip. I have heard that there is potentially some evidence indicating PIO is better for reducing miscarriage risk than Endometrin, but I haven’t seen anything conclusive so I think I’m going to chance it. Does anyone have any insight on this?